Someone you have regarded as a good friend, whom you have opened your home and your heart to, been there for them through a myriad of personal crises of their own, put aside time to share things with, given that person trust in situations not many have been allowed, confided in and given the benefit of the doubt and stood up for them when things have come to the fore has done something that has left you hurt, shocked and disgusted. They have gone behind your back, gone to others you regard as friends, people you care about and respect. Has told them not to speak to you, not to interact with you, to blank you and have nothing to do with you, has said horrible things. Has told numerous lies/stories to manipulate a situation for their own benefit.

This all comes back to you from various people. I have no reason to doubt any of them. Infact it’s helped me understand what the fuck has been going on lately and why all of a sudden I was being ignored by people. The people this person has pulled into this farce have apologised profusely in which I have stated there is nothing to forgive as I do believe they have been hurt as much as I.

You confront this person, they won’t tell you anything, instead offering to ‘sweep it all under the carpet and start again‘ , still not actually explaining what ‘it’ is.

You ask for a face to face meeting to sort it out because at that point you didn’t know anything and want to make sure the friendship stays intact because you genuinely believe this person is good hearted. It doesn’t eventuate.

What would you do?

Now it’s my turn to apologise to every single person I have been manipulated into thinking was bad just on this person’s word. I should have known better. I’m sorry.

At this point?

I’m walking away. I’m going back to my private little life.

Yeah you know. Fuck you. I give you kudos. I never saw it coming. I should have seen the signs, they were there but you had my trust & friendship. I didn’t manipulate anything you fool. Don’t fucking project your own shit. Point the finger at yourself instead. I am not your fucking scapegoat for your behaviour. How fucking dare you.

Leave me the fuck alone. Get on with your life and I’ll get on with mine.

To those that have come to me in confidence and spoken out.

Thank you.

I love you guys. xxx

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