I’ve had so much fun in the last couple weeks, met new people, work has been going extremely well and looking forward to having some mummy and son time with the little one over the school holidays too. I’m itching to find out if I will get into this university course and if I do there’s a hell of a lot of planning and time management ahead if I do get in but it’s all good spaces and the motivation and drive will be there to follow something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. I also have a work opportunity part time doing inhouse graphic design work for a friend so I am finally feeling like all this hard work building my skills and focusing on a career are slowly moving forward. My last serious relationship with the little one’s dad left me feeling very unsupported with my career wants and I walked away from that relationship feeling very determined to put myself first and start making plans to create a career that would see me into the long term and financially support myself and the little one comfortably. There’s a long way to go yet but I kinda feel like I am finally doing all the things I had planned. So I am in a good space and enjoying myself at the moment.
The weekend and some spontaneous fun me and three freekin evil sadistic folk with itchy hands has me sporting cane marks on my ass (and welts from medical tubing hehe) and needle marks from being a demo bunneh for a couple of Domme friends over the weekend. Fuck I was flying after the caning and the following needle play had me giggling and full of endorphins.
Yesterday was spent vegetating, watching a couple of movies and relaxing. My butt was sore yesterday but it’s awesome today and just has a couple of bruises and faint redness, today it’s pretty damn good only hurts if I run lol.
I’m discovering the whole journey with the pain levels is something I like exploring. One of my friends mentioned something about being a pain puppy and yano I love/hate pain but the term ‘pain puppy’ has me a bit weirded out because I don’t think I am at all. I don’t know what it is about it but it’s an area I like to explore so I do. It’s not something I want to think about too much and when things get too much I stop, that’s it. Finished.
It’s scary sometimes to think how far I’d go with that stuff, the headspace’s one goes into are rather freaky yet fun and addictive in a sense. It is indeed a release. I know the risks and I also have a big thing with self responsibility. Read the books, read blogs, whatever, talk to people, immerse yourself in the kink world and learn and if and when you think you wanna try stuff remind yourself of the things that are important to you and what you will and won’t do. Unless you is a slave bunneh and well then, that’s a different kettle of fish hehe.
And yano I am warped because I love poking and staring at all the little after effects that appear. There are so many things that one can do with when it comes to kink and my list is growing slowly with things I want to try. I know I have a thing for stingy sensations and the whole body trip that follows in the pain realm, pushing past that point and riding it out.
So yeas it’s a wee bit of a headfuck when someone says oh you’re a “pain puppeh”. I don’t look at it like that.
Sensation bunneh? Totally
Crazy, cheeky shit? Absofuckinglutely
Fun seeker? Yuppers
Endorphin & Adrenaline Junkie? Hell yeahs!
Lover of all things warped and kinky? Hehe yup 
Pain puppeh? Errrr I’ll get back to you …
As I see it we’re here for a short time, fuck society and it’s judgmental moralistic twattery, fuck it I’m gonna make the most of it and do the things I want to. Because I can. And yano what … fuck it’s a blast.
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