Yano I’ve sat here all morning trying to write something great but the reality is I have a nice wee bout of writer’s block. Frustrating? Fuck yes!

I want to write some erotica, I have been craving a good bout of rampant debauchery flying out of my fingertips but nothing comes out. Instead I sit here and stare at a blank page. I feel hollow. I wonder where that muse of mine has gone. Why am I feeling so uninspired?

I mourn her. I want her to come back and wrap her tendrils around my senses. I want her to suffocate me with words.

Until she decides to come out of hiding I’ll wander around tripping over things that aren’t there.

Instead I’ll struggle until I implode and it all comes pouring out like a torrent.

Within you I lose myself…
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.
~Author Unknown

Note to my little obsessed spammer:

Yes you.

The one who spent a fair while staring at my HNT and perusing the blog. Funny you felt the need to come back for a second week in a row and perv at my HNT’s. Your references to ‘fat’ and the recent ‘whale watching comment you left in my spam queue … jeez intelligent ain’t ya. I mean shit that was so damn creative. LOL.

Yes I know you hid behind a proxy, I also can get around that and have tracked you back to somewhere very near me. I’m amused.

I suggest you fuck off unless you want a computer that won’t work anymore I have a very good friend who can give me everything I need to find your yellow little ass.

In future if you want to abuse me via my blog and hide behind a proxy .. do it fucking properly asshat.

Normal service will resume shortly…

Why am I quiet?

Uni application is under review … this weekend consists of copious amounts of red bull, loud music and lotsa artwork

….. portfolio being sorted and ready for sending on Monday morning.

Fingers and toes crossed …

No matter no matter what you believe
Sing just a little bit louder
Sing with all you got
Sing along with me
No matter no matter what you believe

(clicky)

She said to me,
in seductive whispers
“Let us rendezvous tonight
Under the light of moon
at midnight,
And I will teach you
The art of sinful kissing”

One gaze upon her
pale face,
The pretty glow of truth

All over her sin-seeking lips
the shewolf
wearing the sinful
red lipstick

When all I wanted to do
was see her howl in chains
watch her beg my name
to claim her

Wipe that sin,
right off her lips

Sweet Spiced tagged me for a new meme that demands raw honesty.

10 things that are honest and things you might not know …. or you will in a minute.

Well shit I suppose I can do that. Heh and I have to pick 10 people to join in, ya didn’t think you were getting off that easy did ya?

Now I never do things the way I am supposed to so instead of me going and picking peeps who don’t want to do it, if you want to let me know via here and pop a link up so people can go be nosey.

And the ten things I have to be honest about and ‘stick it out there‘ ….

1.   Things I will not eat: avocado,  pumpkin, brussel sprouts and chicken feet. I went to a Yum Chow lunch on Sunday and they sat there eating fucking chicken feet. Apart from not being able to even watch them eat them I will nevaaaah put something like that near my mouth. Ick. There’s more foods but I can’t think of them right now. If force fed these things I’d prolly vomit.

2.  I posted my application for university this week and I am sat here kinda not really believing I will get into the course.  Even though I have people telling me I am good at what I do I lack the self confidence that I actually am good at it. I am in awe of other designers who do much better work than me. And shut up … that doesn’t require an answer.

3.  I want more time to devote to writing erotica and writing well but I have limited time to do so and it doesn’t pay the bills but it is becoming a passion and one I enjoy a hell of alot.I still don’t think I’m good at that either. And that’s another shut up …

4.  There is this one guy that is at every munch I go to and he is a disgusting piece of filth that I really just abhor. One day I am not going to be very civil to him and he’s going to wish he’d never annoyed me one too many times. He makes my skin crawl and I am sick to death of watching him prowl on new subs. Pondscum.

5. This week my son has given himself a black eye from slipping on the top bunk bed and mushing his face and today he tripped over at school in the classroom and gave himself a fat lip, apparently his tooth is now wiggly. I’m starting to think my clumsiness is hereditary.

6. I have these amazing friends and close relationships but I am still lonely. Go figure.

7. I fucking hate people asking me for free graphics work when they offer nothing in return. To me it’s the equivalent of going to a professional ie. a dentist, a mechanic .. and saying can you do this for nothing kthanxbai. Why is it any different? I got brought up around people who use the good old barter system. If I offer to do something it’s because I want to. If I don’t want to do it, I won’t.

8. I am an impatient little shit most days. When I decide I want something or want to do something I won’t wait for anyone, I go do it.

9. I only have three pairs of sneaker socks left, all the rest are knee high or thigh high socks. I think I have a fetish.

10. I miss having a D/s relationship.  Instead I explore other things I am comfortable with doing. I am grateful I have close friends who like being mean & sadistic to me hehe. I luffs dem.