I am a lover of cartoons and if you don’t know who Foamy is, let me introduce you … hehehe

The last couple days have been mainly a hell of alot of sleeping and working. I did a whack of work this morning and had just about finished this morning and had a little bit to go on one main job when Velvet turned up unexpectedly which was cool cause we went out for a couple of hours. I had some talking to do with him which was good.

I was having major difficulties getting work done anyways with all the interuptions going on, not good for doing artwork which is why if the kids and everyone is home I give up and do it at night when it’s quieter and I am less likely to get interupted. Plus tis the frigging weekend and  I was needing to get out of the house. It’s a downfall of working at home is I am home “all” the time. It’s hard for me to get some relaxing time away from the house. I tried doing the mummy and son time this morning as well but the little one wasn’t that keen so I’ll try again tomorrow. He’s been having so much fun and bonding with the other kids I am feeling a little bit useless lol. I might give him a day off school in a few weeks time and take him on an adventure, just him and me.

Velvet and I got to talk about some stuff that has been bugging me, something I had been needing to do all week so I am grateful he made time, it needed to be done. Work v’s sorting personal shit? It was important to me. I felt bad buggering off, and I felt bad because I forgot to ask Molten if it was okay but hell I have done a bit of kid stuff over the past two weeks of the holidays so I thought it would be okay for a couple hours.  I had looked after the kids all Friday afternoon and was kiddied out. I’m not used to more than one lol and trying to work yesterday afternoon was near impossible. Am looking forward to things getting back to normal now the school holidays are just about over.

Its difficult as I don’t get alot of time to spend with Velvet with different schedules and I normally only get to see him on the weekends. I love the little nights Molten and I fart about doing our own thing, which reminds me I still have to make her watch all of Dirty Dancing hehe. Molten made some uber yummy pancakes this morning and a friend was over for morning tea. Molten has mentioned going shopping tomorrow afternoon to get some things for the kids who are starting their new school on Monday so it’ll be cool to have some hang out time for the afternoon.

Apart from that I haven’t been that entertaining a person. I have been on the nicotine patches and have not been a happy wolfie, nightmares, very little sleep, rashes from the patches and although it helped with the cravings they did shit for the rest of my body. if anything they made me not well, even to the point of fucking up my monthly. I stopped them, started some herbal supplements and attained some herbal sleeping pills and the past two days I have had a 12 hour and an eight hour night, and my body is slowly recupperating. I am down to two to three cigarettes a  day and taking it slowly. Not worrying about it so much and not pushing myself.

I am missing my best mate today, it was her birthday and she sounded so down in the dumps in her last email I am a little worried about her so I have been a wee bit distracted today.

Good news is one job is done and I have one more to do tomorrow night that is urgent. Damn it I want the weekend off so I am going to take as much time as I need. I went like a bat out of hell all week. And on that note I am off to have a wine since I just emailed my job off.

Sorry not much entertaining stuff to write today. Heh.

skin

naked canvas

beckoning, delectable flesh

urges arise to devour, consume

pleasure and pain dance together

clawing, growling, snarling, claiming

a kitten mewls

owned

(Picture and flesh art by Velvet hehe, Guest HNT Molten)

(clicky to see whats really there)

Search terms are the insane way of someone happening across your blog, sometimes the intent is to find your blog, sometimes it’s pure accident. I have some doozies and since Lexi and Kitten decided to do it .. what the hell. Surely I must have some bizarre ones to share?

Not surprisingly “vanilla impaired” is the main term searched. The second is wolf icons funnily enough. I bet they didn’t think they’d be finding erotica, and weird ramblings of a chick.

Fukkits ~ yes I do use the term fukkits as well as fucktard, cuntard when I am reeeally annoyed and my favie asshat … wtf were you searching for fukkits for?

hitachi -cordless -12mm -convergence -lcd -drives -drive -hdtv -tv -saw -drill ~ *snikkers* somehow I think you didn’t really want to know about “that” Hitachi … oh well now you are enlightened to the fact its not just a personal massager

i see 111 ~ yea and I see dumb people

home parenting ~ err not much of that discussed here move along before you taint your eyeballs

germ slogans ~ I term people with germs I can catch as walking germfests … is that a decent slogan for you?

bite me geek ~ errr no?

wordpress lubed ~ rofl you want to lube up wordpress to what? … Fuck it?

saiz of clit ~ ummm go look at an anatomy book then and its SIZE sheesh use a spell checker dude. God if you can’t spell that right what hope have you of doing anything decent with a clit?

puccy games ~ again  …. fucking dictionary or spell checker unless puccy is a game?

slashy speak text ~ ugh … enough said its dumb

submissive brat ~ why yes, yes I can be …. and?

mindfuck a bratty submissive ~ haha now thats dangerous territory, bring it

short with boobs ~ well yes I am, 5″2 and boobs that make up for the short thing

cane marks on ass ~ yep you would have discovered an HNT with those on my butt

sub frenzy ~ yep this one comes up alot too

tw00ness ~ *snort*

safewurd ~ yes some people use em, words like pumperknickel

very strange bdsm ~ define strange please,  it’s kinda like trying to explain normal really

deep heat clit ~ ugh that iz truely eeeeevil I hates it

I am grateful for alot of things in life. I am grateful for my family. The ones I am tied to in blood. The ones who have been there for many years, throught the laughter, the tears, the rages and the tantrums and they still love me for being me, just as I do them.

I am grateful for the beautiful son I have. His random acts of love warm my heart. Anyone who is a parent knows that feeling. There is nothing more precious in the world than the eyes of your own child staring into yours with the words “I love you” escaping their precious mouths. As well as “mummy I just farted”  … so special *rolls eyes*

I am grateful for the moments that give me clarity. Usually at 3am in the frigging morning. Thanks insomnia.

I am grateful to be able to explore my talents as an artist in many forms, to have the ability to use my passion to do what I love as work. To create. The satifying part is giving pleasure to someone else through this. Seeing a smile and a look of satisfaction with a finished product.

I am even more grateful I know how to be a good business woman and tell clients to fuck off when they think they can take me for a ride. Politely of course. I like that, people who assume designing and drawing is a talent that is worth shit and offer to pay a pittance, if they think they know so much then they can go do it themselves while I watch and laugh.

I am grateful for alot of things in life but most importantly I am grateful I have two people in my life who poke and push me in ways no one else can. Sometimes its hard for me to do, especially when this wee wolfie can be the most stubborn assed shit out.The past few days I have been battling PMS, tiredness and struggling to get back to a normal working day and get some cashflow coming in. Balancing it all has been insane of late. My emotions have been raging backwards and forwards and I have hidden myself away in fear of hurting or upsetting people with razored words.

The joys of having Scot’s blood means I have a temper to boot.  I’m empathic which means I tend to take on everyone else’s emotionally charged shit. I can manage it normally. Quite well. But when you have people close to you it’s inevitable I will take it on, which I have. I’m overwhelmed. Hence I disappeared into my own lair and did the solitary thing as much as possible for the past few days. I’m getting there. This transparency thing is hard sometimes. I’ve spent half my life learning to shut my gob because of how blunt I can be when this time its exactly what I need to learn to allow myself to grow. How confuddling but wonderful.

I am grateful for the courier this morning who arrived bright and early and dropped off my new arm warmers *squeeeee* *inserts pic*

MOST IMPORTANTLY… halp…
I am grateful for any advice on how to remove a big wallop of superglue off my finger without actually removing said finger (never on request …glue a childs toy together just after you get out of bed … nawt good)

On more important matters, I am grateful I have a best friend who I have been neglecting for far too long and I am about to remedy it. It’s her birthday this weekend. Time to catch up and see what shes doing. That is one person in my life I don’t have to explain shit to, she knows me too well.I have a feeling if w get together it’ll end in nawty.

And by the way I am grateful for the wonderful people who blog and who I consider good friends. The ones I have been able to talk to since beginning this blog and the special people I have kept in touch with since my old one. Distance may make it difficult to physically meet but the friendships that are there are just as important. Fuck the distance. I am grateful to have you in my life, always.

There’s alot of things I am grateful for but the ones that matter the most are the ones I give my heart to.

The rest are just monkeys.