I have been a good lil imp in the last couple days, getting enough sleep and actually eating some decent food. And I’m feeling better for it. My emotions can side track me very easily and I’ve had an amazing boost and a reminder that there are people there for me when I need them. Sometimes I just don’t know how to ask for help. Alot of what I have been dealing with of late is rather self inflicted. A bad pattern of over thinking which tends to spiral downwards at a rapid pace. My heart has been pulled ever which way over the last year and it’s left me a little susceptible to being overly sensitive at times. But I bounce, and bouncing I am. Slowly getting back on track and just doing the one day at a time thing again.

I went birthday shopping for the little one this morning after having yesterday declared as a no people day. The little one stayed home as he had a wee bit of a horrid cough and it was shitty drizzly weather outside so we stayed indoors for the day and just relaxed. Hehe I think I wandered round the house in boyshorts for half the day then decided I’d better go put some jeans on incase someone wandered in…which is quite normal (I give friends shit about knocking).

My little one is having a joint pre birthday party with his best friend at kindergarten this weekend coming. It’s been great having another mum helping with costs & time and it’s saved us both money and sanity. She’s very laxed back like me when it comes to this kind of thing so we have bought water balloons, 200 of them, and water pistols for the kids to have some fun on the afternoon of the party. It’s starting to heat up quite nicely here with summer approaching. A wee note was sent out with all invites requesting parents send them in casual clothes with a dry set for after. A couple of games have been lined up, party bags for the kids and a dvd on the day for after the water fight and nom nom snacks! The party is three hours and between the two of us and a couple other parents coming it should be a blast. All up 9 children are coming. I bought the little one a Ben 10 watch. Apparently it’s the latest bloody craze with this lot and he’s been nagging me and pointing to every advertisement with it. I am going to give it to him as a surprise on the day. His birthday isn’t till the 27th December but I try and do something during the year so he doesn’t miss out on a decent party with friends and I have planned to take him to the Zoo on his birthday. A special trip and one I love doing. A relaxed cruisy day watching the animals.

Once that’s all over then it’s just the burial stuff which I am still trying to find out about. Useless bunch that lot and his ex has made it rather difficult for alot of us to get any information. Then no more majors, I look forward to being able to focus on new things and no more being pulled twenty different directions.

Family dramas have begun with my brother’s upcoming wedding. They are a very young couple and have been saving and working hard for their wedding in March. Some family members are all starting to squabble over wedding invitations and who’s not been invited. I laughed when I spoke to mum last night and simply said

… “the one’s who are actually pissed about who’s not invited … you have to ask why … some of the people not invited have not had nor provoked any form of contact in years … nor probably would … just because you are tied in blood .. does it give you the right to step in and start dictating how a certain family member’s wedding day should be and you have a right to be there? …. no”

…. some of my family need to pull their head out of their arse’s and wake up. Hence I have learnt to keep my mouth shut in most family gatherings. We are all very outspoken and tend to have some bloody hillarious results with foot in mouth incidents. This wedding is going to be quite amusing. Meanwhile my darling lil brother is getting married. I can’t help but go awwww.

Anyways I haven’t been in much of a major writing mood. So this is it for today unless the mood strikes me later tonight. It’s muggy hot and my brain is asleep. I think I actually prefer Winter.