Off up North for a few days to spend time with the fluffies, will post sumtin if I get the time

Behave while I am gone and noo spamming 

Mwahs xxx

make me laugh & grin

poke my mind

tear at me claw my skin

ravage me with teeth

pick my brains rip me open

expose me hiding beneath

fuck me like you hate me

fuck me like you love me

wrap your arms around me

devour me completely

find me broken fire my soul

bring me tears bring me love

unlace me

unravel me

encase me

See the person first - they are not their kink, their kink is of who they are and how they express themselves. It is the absolute sum total of the person. Their role does not make them a good or bad, better or worse person – they do. Real life counts. Family counts. Friends count. Finances count. Work counts. Health counts. You may make a decision somewhere down the track to put those things in a different order, but they will all have an impact on you and your relationship/s.

With that in mind and damn good advice that’s how I approach people. I don’t want to just know about their kinks, usually that is the last thing that draws my curiosity out when I want to get to know someone on a more personal level. I am attracted to those who actually have some form of nilla interests that are compatible with mine and mebe kink too but it’s not imperative.

Fetlife always seems to make for good posts and this one is no exception. I haven’t really read much of the discussion threads lately because nine times outta ten I get pissed off let alone post cause I tend to begin ranting. Especially when people start spouting off “rules” … whose rules exactly I dunno, you’d prolly have to ask permission to enquire let alone find out that the so called “rules” are actually from their own little fantasy worlds because they have spent far too much time playing in cyber land online.

I can speak from both sides of the fence. I had an online relationship and in some ways it did things for me in mind I am grateful for. It also showed me how submissive I could get with the “right” person. But then I made a conscious decision to get out and actually meet people which I have done so and I have absolutely no regrets. The online world is full of some very fantastical insane people.

The only rules I abide by are my own and the person’s I am involved with. I don’t give two cahoots what so and so says I should do. And of late I am sick and tired of being told by others what to damn well do or assumptions being made when they don’t really know me at all. I love the kink thing, I love being around people who love the kink thing and accept people for individuals with their own paths, but most of all I love the people who know me well enough to know that I am a capable adult who can make her own choices. I really cannot stand the ones who try and squeeze people into damn boxes they just don’t fit into, nor want to.

It’s funny after spending online time talking to different people you get to start seeing through the bullshit and seeing who are genuine people with no hidden agenda’s. I like spending time sharing thoughts, discussing things and having conversations that are not one sided. What I don’t like doing is trying to have an intelligent conversation with people who are there to try and fiddle with my head and gleam things outta me I am not willing to divulge, and their intentions are quite fucking obvious as to what they want. Some kinky play, no strings attached … sorry look elsewhere.

If I make a friendship I do it because I genuinely think there is something to be explored in whatever path it takes. No expectations but I expect a committment of some form. That word itself scares people away hehe and I don’t mind. I am not about shallowness or using someone. I want depth and intimacy and most importantly love.

I have no idea what the point of this post is just a few things that have been rambling about my head this morning … I am off to have a nap and try get rid of this damn flu that’s trying to take over my body. I cannot get sick I haz a holiday up North with the fluffies starting tomorrow and I needs to be well.

Yaaaaay … boing boing … squeee

Can ya tell I’m happy huh huh? Today I woke .. quite unamused and sighing because I knew I would spend another day at the comp slogging away trying to get more paid work in … I did, 2 clients paid me, still not overly satisfied because I have been trying to get money together so I can have an enjoyable weekend but … yes there’s always a but… the money wasn’t going to come through in time for the weekend.

Alas it did not seem so until about two hours aho where plans and action have fell into place hehe, I got paid, and then paid again by a client I thought had done a disappearing act on me .. it seems he’s been stressing about losing me as a designer because his clients mucked him around, he’s paid for the work I have done and asked for some more lol … this time he’ll be paying up front lol.

So now I have money to cover the next two months worth of bills and have some fun this weekend but most uberly good and why I am grinning like only a book nerd can, is I just went shopping and bought me some books.

I got “Opening Up” … another book I can add to my kink cupboard. Two more of the Sherrilyn Kenyon Dark Hunter series (25 books to collect, I now have 5 of them lol) and a book I have wanted to read for a long time The Measure of a Man by Sydney Poitier. So sqquueee new books … more to add to the pile I haven’t had time to read yet … my friend just shook her head at me when we caught up for coffee today because I was so excited about new books …. she knows hehe.

So now the best thing is I am financially relieved of stress for a few more weeks which means I can do the work I want to do instead of scrambling for shit work and crap pay. And even better I get a weekend with the fluffies up North

Asking with positive intent and putting it “out there” sometimes does work you know…I’m going off to eat pizza now hehe x