Author: vanimp
Published: Sep 28th, 2008
Nips & Bites: 1

Ooo look another bloody meme …

There’s tons of meme’s floating about at the moment and it’s Sunday and I am in a lazy mood, and also focussed on writing that article so you are stuck with a sodding old meme … tough if you don’t like it

… oh and I changed it a bit hehe

Favourites & Stuff

[Wallet] black leather one with numerous hidey pockets
[Hairbrush] ermm a black one lol
[Toothbrush] they didn’t have black toothbrushes … I have a blue one instead
[Jewellery Worn Daily] a silver pentacle around my neck on black leather, black leather around my wrist in memory of a friend, a silver ring and a silver thumb ring
[Blanket] my furry blankie on my bed, its warm and well… furry
[Facewash] good old water
[Coffee Cup] Jack Daniels mug
[Sunglasses] a crappy pair that I seem to have owned for forever
[Underwear] boy shorts when I wear them lol
[Shoes] black boots and doc martens
[Favourite Shirt] my red gothy shirt “lifeless but not heartless”
[Favourite Pants] jeans
[CD In Stereo Right Now] nothing all I can hear is stupid thomas trains going round and round a track
[Tattoos] Nope I draw them for people never had one
[Piercings] ears
[What You Are Wearing Now] grungy batman t-shirt and jeans
[Hair] up in a bun with sunglasses propped on my head
[Number] 13
[Color] black lol (seriously would it be any other color?)
[Day] weekends cause I don’t have anywhere to be
[Month] October (All Hallow’s Eve)
[Season] Winter
[Drink] Twinings English Breakfast Tea
[Veggie] Potato with herbs & garlic
[Television Show] don’t watch telly
[Radio] that’s what personal music collections are for so you don’t have to listen to crap
[Store] Rivendell, a pagan shop up North
[Word] fucktard
[Animal] wolf
[Flower] sunflowers

When was the last time you …
[Smiled] today
[Laughed] today
[Cried] ummm not sure
[Bought] this morning did a few groceries
[Danced] dancing results in me on floor due to a fucked ligament lol
[Were Sarcastic] probably today it’s automatic
[Had A Nightmare] ummm dunno I was asleep
[Last Book You Read] currently reading Brisingr
[Last Movie You Saw] Alexander
[Last Thing You Had To Eat] marmite on toast

Body
[What Do You Like Most About Your Body] my hair lol
[And Least?] general shape I need to tone up from losing so much weight
[How Many Fillings Do You Have] fuck I don’t count them
[Do You Think You Are Good-Looking] not really important to me
[Do Other People Often Tell You That You’re Good-Looking] yes
[Do You Look Like Any Celebrities] fucked if I know lol you tell me

Fashion
[Do You Wear A Watch] nup my mobile is my clock hehe
[How Many Coats And Jackets Do You Own] a couple decent jackets, trnechcoat is next on the list
[Favorite Pants Color] black
[Most Expensive Item Of Clothing] black dress jacket
[Describe Your Style In One Word] unique

Your Friends
[Do Your Friends Know You] yep and surprisingly they haven’t run away screaming yet
[Are There Traits In You That Are Universally Liked?] hell I dunno being empathic I suppose so
[How Many People Do You Tell Everything To] a couple

Music;Television;Books
[Favourite Band Ever] I don’t have a specific one, I have moods
[Type of Music Most Listened To] Rock
[Type Never Listened To] Rap
[Favourite Book?] …don’t you mean books? how can you have just one :O that’s blaspehmous

General Questions
[Sunny or Rainy Day] rainy I don’t like being out in the sun for too long
[Do You Consider Yourself Lucky] reasonably
[Do You Feel Pity For People Who Commit Suicide] not pity no, sadness
[Choose One Word To Describe How You Most Often Feel] busy lol
[Do You Own Plaid Clothing] ugh no
[Is There More Than One Zipper On Your Pants] nope but I want more
[Do You Own Braces] nup used to lol
[Does Your Hairstyle Exceed A Height Of Three Inches] nope
[Would You Classify Your Hair As A Deadly Weapon] haha erm maybe
[Do You Have A Favorite Brand Of Hair Dye] yup black
[Do You Own A Bandana] yep it’s currently holding my tarot cards
[Are You Amused By Safety Pins] they are useful
[Have You Ever Used Duct Tape As A Sewing Substitute] haha no not that bad
[Do You Like Candles] yes
[Do You Believe In Love] does a bear shit in the woods?
[What Do You Want Done With Your Body When You Die] cremated and my dogs ashes and mine buried together
[What Are You Gonna Do When You Get Older] grow old gracefully or recklessly whatever takes my fancy at the time
[How Many Songs Do You Have On Your Computer] ermm at last count 21GB worth lol
[What Band Are You Listening To] nothing still listening to now fucking annoying thomas toys
[Look Out Your Window... Tell Me What You See] hills, blue sky … ooo a bird
[If You Could Have Any Animal For A Pet] wolf
[What Is The Longest You Ever Stayed Up] all night and the whole next day
[Are You Disgruntled] nup wtf for?
[Are You An Anarchist?] *sigh*… labels
[Do You Smoke Cigarettes?] yes I know its bad yada yada yada
[Are You A Vegetarian?] did try for a couple years then caved over a good steak, I like meat
[Do You Think Meat Is Murder?] no I ate it didn’t I?
[Have You Ever Slept In An Alley Or Park] yup in a park
[Do You Wash Your Hair Less Than Once A Week] ewww no
[Have You Ever Gone A Week Without A Shower?] ewww fucking gross NO

About Me
[Age] 35
[Birthday] September
[Sign] Vrigin Virgo lol
[Location] NZ
[Status] Alive
[Natural Hair Colour] Dark Brown with bleachy bits
[Current Hair Colour] Black
[Eye Colour] Blue
[Height] 5″2
[Shoe size] 6
[Parents] Yep two of them
[Siblings] Brother & Sister both younger by 11 and 7 years
[Live With] none of your business lol

Author: vanimp
Published: Sep 28th, 2008
Nips & Bites: 7

Sub Drop

I dropped, and over the last two days I have come back to reality, hence there’s not been much on the blog. I withdrew alot and needed time to myself which Herne recognised and gave me that space. Part of the reason I wanted and need someone who is experienced as a dominant is because I have an extremely sensitive nature. I know myself well, I know how I react.

So for the last two days I have been gathering my thoughts, had a chat with Herne about the drop, it was Herne who saw it for what it was. I didn’t want to be touched, my body felt like I had been run over from a truck and I needed “me” time. He had a very quiet wolfie.

Yesterday was much better and I became a whirlwind of gusto, got stoned and basically reinvented my house lol. After the flatmate got kicked out I decided the house needed to become a home instead of a flat so all my things I had been hoarding in my room in fear of things gettting broken and fucked with are now around my home, including a few witchy things which I will build on more. We have new herbs planted and my herby gardens are growing yay! I cleaned the kitchen out from top to bottom and I now have a nice spot in my sunroom to read and write when the urge hits, we finally have a “home”.

Researching sub drop I discovered one very interesting thing … there is fuck all on the net about it and even more surprisingly, there was nothing in any of the kink books I own. This lead me to decide that I will write my own article on it and set up a section on the blog with articles of interest so at least there is one place on the world wide web where you can find information on things such as this. So damn important and something everyone should be aware of.

Sub drop doesn’t just affect a newbie even an experienced sub/slave has to deal with it at times, one in a long time relationship, we can all experience sub drop after an intense scene and some don’t ever. It’s something that’s not often recognised. In my case I needed Herne to actually ask me if that’s maybe what I was dealing with and when he did ask it was like a light going off … that was exactly what it was. I was so involved in my own head and what I was feeling that I didn’t take the time to step back and say “hey, what’s going on here”.

The come back down to reality was intense and didn’t hit me till the next day, apparently sub drop can take up to three days to appear, usually within the first 48 hours. All those endorphins and how your body reacts at the time to the feeling of emptiness, unsettled thoughts and the general feeling of having a body that is sluggish and tired.

Anyways I would love to know your thoughts and comments and anything you would like to add … the article will be written over the next couple of days when I get a little time, if anyone has a topic they would like me to write about feel free to ask. x

Author: vanimp
Published: Sep 27th, 2008
Nips & Bites: 3