You know sometimes I wonder wtf you all find so interesting about this blog but the hits to the site don’t lie. It’s humbling you know and at times amusing to see what brings people here.  The sodomy one was funny. Arse is such a wonderful word especially when “Father Ted” says it hehe.

My day of shopping went wicked I splurged and got a gorgeous dress jacket, schoolgirl outfit complete haha. It looks damn fine with a nice pair of jeans and boots and a sexy top underneath, and I bought two new pairs of jeans because I live in jeans, I can dress up or down depending on my moods and whether I’m in mummy mode, it makes for easy life lol.  Shopping with two toddlers is a harrowing experience when they seem to be stuck on run & squeal mode. No such thing as walking.  I bought lollipops at one point to shut them both up lol, it worked for about 20 seconds bah.

My mind has been in the gutter all day and my best mate seems to think I have a contagious effect on her lol.  Whilst shopping and purchasing my yummy clothes she blurts out some word (I can’t remember what it bloody was now) and instead of saying it correctly the word “come” came out. Me, well I burst out laughing which caused her face to turn a nice shade of red and the young girl behind the counter started laughing and then well, that started a whole spiel of jokes forthwith.  Was really quite funny. Meanwhile I am gazing out the front door of the shop lost in wicked thoughts at this hot guy walking past in a black trenchcoat, leather shoes and oh so hot body with the face and hair to match.  A dark mysterious yummy hunk of man. I think I need a night of lustful sex LOL.

I went to the bank and sorted out some new accounts and the chick that did all my application work was this young thing, black fingernails, black hair, all in black, not one iota of color. I was dressed casually but blackened, yes I wear alot of black, in pagan terms its a protective color, it can also mean hidden, in essence it represents the dark side in us, the shadow self.  But really I just like black, I was what is termed a “bogan or a westie”  here before goth was even a word lol. She spyed my pentagram smiled and I had the most quickest betest service I have ever had in a bank, isn’t it funny.

We had coffee and wicked talks about lots of things and again she reminded me of the fact I haven’t slept with anyone in over a year, which isn’t normal for me I either have a man or I have a fuckbuddy according to her.  I was single by choice for years but I had what is termed as fuckbuddies lol.  No strings friends.  Not all at once LOL.  I didn’t share,  basically I had a sex partner, we were normally in lust with each other and nothing more, a cuddle bunny on occassion when we needed one, we would do the social outing thing on our own and if we crossed paths duiring the night we would usually end up somewhere together for the night, if we were busy it was okay no big deal but we left the relationship shit out of it we weren’t a couple just friends with benefits.

Eventually one or the other would develop feelings or we would meet someone else during a lull and move on.  Safe and sane sex with no dramas.  It worked for me then.  Shes organised a night out in a couple weeks.  She’s told me a couple things about some guy shes friends with off a dating site and immediately I roll my eyes, I hate blind dates.  I hate being forced into a matchmaking situation and even though she says shes not I know shes up to something. So its a whole lot of his friends and us … me I think I’ll find some reinforcements hehe.

We laugh about some of the deviant things we would do if we weren’t so tied up in our own morals and ethics.  How cold hearted some people are.  How trusting and honest we are at times and how naive for us to believe that everyone should be the same.  We are both exploring our thirties and wondering what the fuck it is all about, where we are going, both solo mothers, raising children.  And we talk about our sex lives. Only as women can. She’s vanilla and Im the kinky one, yet we both want the same thing, a real man who can take the lead, be stronger than we are, and be able to say no and mean it. But we both know that its no point waiting around for him to magically appear, we have lives to live, fun to be had and we are doing okay.

It’s days like today that put things into perspective. This is who I am and this is where I am at and it’s good.