A good rant always makes one feel better … well it does for me and its much safer to write it than to take it out on someone well thats my opinion and I’m sticking to it.  Words can never be taken back.  I always keep that in mind when speaking to someone. Sometimes foot in mouth gets the better of me though lol.

My son is off on his holiday next week and I have decided that its time for me to attempt the no smoking thing again.  I went down and bought my homeopathic stop smoking kit so I am all ready to start.  I was such an evil grumpy bitch when I stopped last time and I would have succeeded totally if my friend hadn’t passed away when he did… naughty boy he is.  So I figure starting the process while bubs is away gives me at least 10 days to get it well underway and sorted before he comes back to a smoke free home.  It’s a disgusting habit and one I want to stop.  Every other time I stopped I did so because of the guilt of smoking and knowing what it was doing to my body BUT I liked smoking.  Now I hate it so now is the time when it has more of a chance of working.  And I remember how good I felt when I stopped last time, clean teeth no icky breath and all the grotty things that come with smoking go.  I am looking forward to it.  My flatmate isn’t though he’s mumbling about having to stand in 4 degree temps at night to have a ciggy … hehe not my problem.

So those I talk to on a personal level off the blog … forgive me if I am a cranky cow next week … now you will know why lol.  It’s most certainly not you it’s meeeee.  I think I may lay low next week, safer for all concerned haha.

On the financial end … YAY … I am now debt free, its taken me nearly twelve months of hard slog to get rid of all the debts and shit I had with my son’s dad so now I can start moving forward.  The new computer is being ordered and will be here in a couple of weeks so that will be fun!  From 1gb to 8gb ram is going to make a huuuuge difference *woop woop*

One of my darling subbie friends told me shes being collared in a couple weeks, I am so damn pleased for her, shes deserves happiness, I only wish I could be there to see it, but the UK is a little far away (opposite side of the world!) and a $2000 airfare is a little too much to afford right now, one day hunni we will meet damnit lol.

This girl is trying to get some sleep tonight, insomnia has hit rather bad recently and i have had about 8 hours sleep in the past three days.  I went to sleep last night then woke an hour later and couldn’t go back to sleep and I don’t really know why I have had such a bad attack of it lately.  Hopefully it passes, I feel like I have some sort of hangover or something.

There’s a post on subs without dominants on Fetlife atm that I am quietly watching regarding what a “natural dominant” is … jeez some of them have jumped in there guns blazing and not understood the intent of the post, I however see what he has tried to explain and I agree with him, after all the point is to discuss … some prefer to jump in and the tone of their posts is quite negative and uppity … sad that people cannot discuss things without pushing their own opinions on others, it stops people from wanting to have a good banter.  Maybe I’ll add my two cents on there later, right now this brain is not functioning well due to lack of sleep and I can’t have a nap as I have to go out again, the life of a mummy lol.

If you haven’t had a look at Dragonfly’s blog (link is on the right) please do so, she has some amazingly HOT stories on there.